friday 17th february.berlin

the 17th of february was the presentation. By accident I was the first.
We started late, at 10:30 a.m.

I didn't have enough time to explain all the things that have happened, I had to resume(obviosuly).
At the beginning there were two guests Prof. Luise King, Jan Rinke and my teacher, Florian Köhl. Also Dani came!
I showed this blog, I forgot Januar, I could'nt explain everything.
I don't know how Mac computers work and suddenly I started closing-opening windows without control so ... Frederic helped me.
Since my situation in the city, until the euro wich Igor gave to me, I crossed over different scales. I used the blog to explain how I felt all the experiences, and I used the pictures with their comments to compare with people's points of view. I have received pictures from ten different people.


Two more guests came later Sara Riviere and Nikolai von Rosen.
I can't not repeat the exact words, I was not writting in that moment, something that I noticed, was difference between what the women said and what the men said.


Both woman talked about the things that they found interesting, the occupation with my objects, the relations established with people and also about my personal experience, they were delighted, they said to me; on the other side one of them said that this project seemed to him strange people making strange things in berlin, he was not delighted and couldn't find nothing interesting, the other one called the project performance.


They talked about borders, Florian said that it was a conventional room (wich is true) and started talking about how can it be next time( more ambiguous, maybe?) ... he also said how nice was the process (4 days) of carrying the elements [in]to ewersbalder; Sara noticed how I changed the space I had around by bringing my own space, she related it with the way in which Audrey Hepburn brought her own personal space around her, just with her coffee, in Breakfast at Tiffany's .

thursday 16th february.berlin





wednesday 15th february.berlin



shoes pillow lap top thermo book buda postcard (in the black book) pictures (behind the black book) suitcase blankets( presents) used candle blog-carpet some collages-plans and a little bit of coffee.

monday 13th febraury. berlin

13:45 I wait for the s-bahn...something happens, it doesn´t comes.
14:10 I take the S-bahn form Westend, I don´t know way this trains usually stop in someplace and everybody has to go out...ende station. And it doesn´t matter if it is your ende-travel or not.
14:30 I arrive at Shönhauser alle.
15:30 I´ve just finished measuring, recording, taking pictures so I go home. The paper I put last time stills there but it didn´t work out.
15:35 Shönhauser alle.
I go home, and I forgot to take the carpets from Giorgio´s, one of the reasons for the travel.

sunday 12th february.berlin















I´ve been thinking of what happened there.

the difference between public and privat is made most of times by our actions.
the limit is our decision to comunicate. sometimes when there is now wall, still exists some kind of border( not property, no wall, no fence, no traffic light)... some kind of sensitive education that stopped the people to interrupt me.

when I did paint my nails, when I was sleeping, when I was reading, normaly none interrupted me, and when they did, they just wanted to chat.

another thing is the necesity from the people there to know exactly what happens, why do I request their attention, why do I show this, why do I need them.
I was giving them the oportunity to be ogler, onlooker, spectators...they didn´t understand it.
the spectacle was sometimes about intimacy, and another times about street life.
My explanations where never enough for them.

saturday 11th february.berlin

I was editing the work, the sounds, the images, the texts...when I´ve known that my grandmother has lost her memory.

All this objects which I´m working with are full of stories, some of them have not happened yet.
I can not imagine not knowing the objects, the stories, the people...

Tuesday 7th february. berlin

19:00 p.m. I’m going to Eberswalder in the U2. Today I’ve received pictures from Frederic, who visited me wile I was sleeping, and Elisa a friend of Graziella, I’ve send a mail to the people that took pictures, and I know them.
I don’t know if somebody make a picture from away and doesn’t have my address.
I arrive at eberswalder, first I try to put one of the papers in the place where I put my photos, but the owner of the kiosk come and says that the illuminated poster must be visible. So today he has problems with my occupation.
It is raining, the cartels’ glue on the walls is still fresh, and so I use it.
Now I record some sounds, they remember me when I was sleeping. The place now appears to me really small.
20:30 I go back.

friday 10th february.berlin

Friday

13:00 I’m making pictures to my objects, the objects that I brought to eberswalder.

19:00 p.m. Aaron knocks my door, he gives me folder with pictures and a text:

Hi

so sorry, jetzt kommen endlich die angefragten Bilder von deinem Projekt

Ich versuch mal auch noch eins, zwei Zeilen dazu zu schreibenHmm gar nicht so leicht, dass irgendwie einzuordnen.
Gedanke: ‚Verrückt’. Was wohl eigentlich gar nicht mehr gesagt zu werden brauch, wobei, da ich es nicht als gewöhnlich erachte, du schon dein erstes Ziel bei mir als unbeteiligter Passant erreicht hast.

  1. Eine hässliche Ecke Berlin’s wird wohnlich.
  2. Festgefressene Paradigmen werden zweifelhaft.
-WIR sind für die Gestaltung unseres Umfeldes verantwortlich.
-Wieso schließen wir hinter uns die Tür zu und damit unser Umfeld aus?

-Öffentlicher Raum = Lebensraum (erinnerte mich ein wenig an afrikanische, oder asiatische Länder, wo das Leben größtenteils draußen und gemeinschaftlich stattfindet.)
  1. Eine Zeitungsanzeige für dein Wohnzimmer könnte sehr interessant ausfallen.

Also diese ‚Zimmer zu vermieten’ Dinger.

  1. „Wohnst du noch, oder frierst (lebst) du schon“?

Ok. Ist nur blabla, aber du wolltest es ja so, glaub ich.

Mit besten Grüßen

Aaron

20:00 p.m. I try to translate it, Kerttu comes in and she helps me. She wants me to cook Spanish omelette.

Thursday 9th february.berlin

10:00 Meting: we will have three days of presentations, it’s different from Sevilla.

11:00 I speak with Frederic, they have use sounds and maybe they know something about cleaning sounds. He gives me some sounds.

11:20 I meet Gra at ZEMS, she gives me her pictures. I eat her lunch.

17:30 I meet Florian, Besprechung Termin, I go with Graziella, my flatmate. Markus thought that my bedroom was in other place, so he couldn’t find me.

Wednesday 8th february.berlin

19:00 p.m. In the pc pool I meet Marta, she gave me her pictures, she hasn’t written the names, but she says she will.

Monday 6th february. berlin

I go to internet, I’ve receive a picture from somebody called Fernando Offerman, he calls it Dimitroffstrasse; I also receive pictures form Matthias.

Sunday 5th frebuary.berlin

18:00 p.m. I go with Dani from the residence until Shönhauser Alle, we take the Ring in Westend, this way is really shorter.
18:20 we found a trolley in the street just where the house of Giorgio is. We take the clothes horse, the mattress, and blankets. We go with the trolley inside the S-bahn
Yesterday when Gra and I left the place, I took with me my suitcase and my bag.
Back in the residence, Dani gives me her pictures.

saturday 4th february.berlin


I'm using earplugs to stop at least high sounds, ambulances, cars...but anyway I feel them.
I can feel the floor shaken under the mattress. I hear the cars so near that I think they will run over me. If I open my eyes I see the car lights through the plastic bubbles. I feel so tight.I wish take out my socks. a man comes , he push me, I can't see him, I uncover myself( I don't know what he wants):
-once I made a project like this but nobody belived me.
-o.k. guten naght.
now I will like to sleep. when I hear sombody I moved a little. I can hear the laughter, conversations, songs, broking glasses ... my plastic .


8:30 a.m I woke up, I almost can't not move, I break the plastic, I want to go out.
the people there watch twice. There is snowing. The plants are down, but alive.
The experiment is finished.

All my things are in their place, plus two euros in the table.I call everybody, who will come?
Graziella came, she hasn't slept yet.


we bring everything back to Giorgio's.

friday 3rd february.berlin



6:30 a.m. I arrived late because I wanted to carry everything with me, Graziella ( my future flatmate) was there waiting for me. we opened the left luggage lockers and took everithing with us.Alexander Platz

At 8:30 a.m. in Eberswalder the floor is ready so we go to Giorgio´s, few people came when we were not there, Giorgio is sleeping, he has just gone to bed.
We colocate everything, Gra takes out a shit and I finish cleaning the future bathroom.While I put my personal belongings Gra goes to the supermarket to buy some food. The breakfast is ready in the table. bread, coffee, ham Garziella doesn't want to have breakfast where the table is, by the road, so we move it.

The first thing we found is man that can not sell in his corner because we are there. he doesn´t say nothing, just come take his hidden things from the wall of the kiosk.
Finished breakfast a man came, he says he is an architektur photograph, he makes some pictures, I pose, is the only time I did it in all the day.
An artist came and speaks to me about what is public and what is private, he works in that.
the tram pass frecuently and the people watch us. A woman wanted to give us money, two euros, I say that I don´t need it, she doesn't understand.
We are just under the train railway.
A woman doesn't like what we are doing, I don't understand why, we explained that it's a project and she said: no!
Some people think that this is a political reivindication, they search for some poster.
A dog came and putt its foot in my lap top, they doesn´t have problems to come in, it licks Graziella.

The people from here seem to be really adapted to everything, most of them don´t even look.
12:00 I meet Sebastian( who studies medizin in Italy). After talking, I ask him if he wants to come, he does, he takes out his shoes. He stay for a little with Gra and with me, he goes with the thermo he promises come back with hot tee.
Sara had arrived, she came for Graziella, a man gave us some drink: coco milkshake with ron.It also would be very helpfull. Sara takes us a photo. She spoke with Sebastian both study in the same city, Bolonia.
Alex(who lives in Lichtenberg) comes closer, he gives me to blanckets(*), which will be really helpfull. he said that he liked what was here and he wanted to particicpate.
I asked him to take out his shoes. he comes in. we just smoke a cigarette, he was worried about the cold and the plants, they could get frozen during the night -you could put them a plastic-.

Sara and Gracciela are leaving. I need to use cream for my hands.
14:30 p.m. It comes a little darker. I´m completely alone. Lots of unknown people have came closer and talked to me.But when we are more, more people are encouraged to come, when I am alone I see them embarrased, looking through a window.
My neighbour still comes sometimes.
I´ve noticed that when I make eye contact with some person, he usually turns around, but If I, as now, make eye contact followed by a smile, he comes and ask.
Today is really freezing.I´m trying to read, just by the table.

There is a man who prowls around, I feel in his face that he doesn´t like this...suddenly he takes my camera in his hands and asks me: -Wie viel kostet?- I say it´s not for selling so he goes, saying something about loosing things.
3:05 p.m. A man ( later I´ll know his name: Igor) gives me one euro. He came and asked me- if I give you an euro I could make you a photo, isn't it?- No you don't have to give any money just send it later to me, please. - he stills want to give me the coin, he makes the picture- later you can have a coffee!-. (*)
When I'm alone I think in the cold.
Some people ask me if I'm been paid, I said no, it's just an experiment.
A man says to me that once he had a dream in which he saw beds in the city, he was walking in the street seing beds.
Some people ask me if this is some kind of performance. I don´t know what to answer, I don´t need the word, but maybe for them could be reassuring. The normal question after what, is why.
15:38 p.m My neighbour comes back.
the worst thing are the sirens from ambulances.
15:47 p.m.I lie down on the carpet, while smoking, thinking.

15:57 p.m. Andrea, hare krishna, ex-priest. he was in south-america and know he is here working hard in the hard life, he said. he comes closer, he says that he likes this isle af peace in the city. He would come back later. Marta arrives. I stop trying to read.
16:24 p.m.Manuel, Dani ( from my residence) arrived they make some pictures, Andrea comes back, with a friend, he gave me a Buda postcard(*). We are playing Trivial Pursuit, it is Graziella´s.
17:10 p.m. Kerttu comes too. (sie wohnt bei mir).
17:37 p.m. We still playing, I think this is not anymore a bedroom, we are to many people, it´s just an impression. I brush my teeth.

17:55 p.m. Dani and Manu went out, also Andrea,his friend and Marta, I stay with Kerttu. I see some people running.
18:05 p.m. Sebastian comes back with warm Glühwein.(*)we are three now.

18:15 p.m. A man comes,doesn't say nothing, and gives me half packet of frikadellen(*).I eat them.
18:30 p.m. A young man (Ben)with a big hat and a big suitcase asks me if he can comes in. once he is with us he drinks Glüwein, lights a pair candles and plays saxofon, in my bedroom, that was exciting.


Sebastian, Kerttu and me are in the bed under my blankets because of the cold.Ben gave me a candle(*).
when somebody comes I have also the blankets that Alex gave me for them, when the feets are warm there is no problem.
18:50 p.m.Phillip doesn't understand what I'm doing, he says that television here is something of first necesity and I shoul have one. he speaks with me in spanish.


19:00 p.m. Sebastian discover a new way of looking the street, he lies down, looking upside down. Sebastian's flatmates come. Florian comes. They take pictures. Florian comes also under the blankets, he notices that there is warm.

19:25 p.m. We are three again, drinking glühwein. Matthias arrives( he comes often to the residence).Now we are four.
20:05 p.m.I saw a man( tall, thin, black dressed, not shaved) writing something, I didn't care. He comes in, with his big shoes, he throw to us the book (*)where he was writing. he doesn't say nothing,he goes, he was rude.
I can't understand what is written in the book but neither Matthias or Sebastian who are german. the book is called: do you remember?

20:05 p.m. There is a man (the one who gave me that euro) who passes by for the third time in the day, I start thinking that he changes his route to comes here( he is the one who will come later with plastic glasses and wine).
20:25 p.m. I've lost control. We are ten people or more, some of them bring drinks, some doesn´t take out their shoes, we play musik in my lap top. I have to change the things from their original places, to save them, like the plants which where in the entry. drinking, talking...one man says:
-I think what you're doing here is art, o.k?but it's not a experiment because I live in the street every day.
-I explain to him, how I'm showing myself, through my things, through this rom that now is a mess. I say to him that maybe when he goes to sleep he hides himself under the blanket, and that's all. More people who live in the street have told me the same today, but I´m living in a room in the street.

I don't know what is this place at the moment. Sara is painting the nails to a palestinian who looks like jamaican.

11:40 p.m. When everything was calm, I was just with Graziella and Sebastian, I had a conversation with Tom(his dreamt flat in berlin would have been in the same crossing) , we where separated by the clothes horse.

what would hapen if everybody takes a piece of public space and makes it personal?-he asks me, I answer that it could became much more interesting, normaly the people goes from one place to another and doesn't care of what's between.
He says that when somebody has a cut, it needs skin to cure. He also thinks that my objects will be different when I carry them back home.different for me. Actually, he was right.

12:00 Sebastian has gone. Haaron came, he stays here until I went to bed, I didn't recognize him, he lives in my residence, we just have seen eachother once, when he forgot his key and I let him mine. Claus came also, he is from Austria, he studies architecture, he wanted to stay but it was cold. I notice how the people stay longer they like to discover little details, as the photos or some book. he is discovering the toothbrush, while he is speaking.



A woman is really worried about me, she can't understand why will I sleep here. she asks why almost six times, she looks for cans and bottles. she scares me.
Somebody asks me about police, they haven't said nothing. I hope they let me sleep. they ask me if I have a permiss
Everybody goes, Haaron makes photos, Gra and I tidy up a little, she packs me and she left me sleeping.

thursday 2nd Februar.Berlin

10:10 Arrive at bauhaus.I buy ten cardboard boxes and five bublle warp rolls. wittemberg.

11:00 Markus help me to carry the things, they are really heavy.Ernst Router platz.
I gave to Thobias the information about the projects, I thought it was at eleven o´clock but he said to me that it was not necesary.
11:20 I take the U-bahn to Alexander Platz. In my plan, I´ll left somethings( the ones to build the floor) in Alexander. This is the nearest place were I can left things (even more than Giorgio´s house).
12:15 I leave Alexander, go back home, my left luggage lockers are 16 and 22.Each one costs three euros: I didn´t have change so I went to the toilets were there is changing machine, leaving everything open.


12:30 I stop in the mensa, to eat something. The temperature are going down.
13:20 I go.
I saw a water in the street in Eosanderstrasse. I went out of the bus in the next bus stop, I ran to the toilet, I hanged it...it was to heavy to carry. I left it.

14:30 I go with Kerttu( she come from Estland) in the U-bahn, we carry the clothes horse, the two carpets, and my suitcase. nobody sits with us during the travel.

16:15 We have left the things in Giorgio´s house. He wasn´t there, but Carolina his flattmate knows what happens, so she oppened the door. In the U-bahn I have slept.we have stopped in wittemberg to buy one more thing, Kerttu buys also something to eat, she says to me: ißt!,
I am not hungry! Now we go home.
17:30 Beschprechen termin.Ernst Router platz. I show Florian the keys of Alexander. He likes it. I go to Dany´s birthday party. Everything is ready.

19:55 I haven´t gone yet I was writting and printing. now I go to his birthday party. Just a little time, in the kneipe. I´ll meet tomorrow morning Graciella, at 6:00 a.m. were the toilets are in Alexander platz.